How did you start within the industry?

Jenna Fireworks: When I was 11 & 13 years old I would say that I will do porn. It was quite foreshadowing. I never watched porn though. I loved all movies with sexual, erotic undertones. I experienced bi sexuality early. I refused to identify with the label & thought I did something bad. I remember watching a movie about a call girl and thought it was so glamorous. My babysitter would dress up in lingerie and wanted to be in playboy, as a child I was very repressed!! 

I had a best friend who was a stripper when I was 17 and wished I could. I did not know I could. I babysat for a porn actor/producer at 16 and he told me he wanted to fuck me on camera for money. I did not but he always told me I have an interesting face and should. He would try kiss me. My mom wanted me to cover up my body. My dad smacked me for wearing shorts. She would make fun of me and tell me I was a slut, whore, bitch, premenstrual when I was 10-11 years old. I was extremely shy. 

If I did my makeup she would tell me I looked like a fucking whore as a teen. She would make fun if I wore heels or boots. I was studying and failing. I thought I wanted to be a doctor. I was devastated when my parents told me I couldn’t go to school one semester. My parents told me to stay with them and everything else was unsafe. I was trapped in abuse and constantly reflected outwardly in many abusive, assault situations. I did travel alone to other countries often because travel was normal for me. I am, to this day grateful for that. 

I met a sugar daddy who would pay $500 per meet but when he said no condoms I said no and left. I didn’t know my worth at all. I worked in offices and call centers. I didn’t understand. Men would either treat me like one night stand or offer me sex at bars for money but I didn’t understand. I was scared to take my shirt off during sex in the beginning. I would get chased around in foreign countries and drugged by guys. I flew to meet a man as a sugar daddy for sex online for 1k. He saw I had tattoos that I got at 16 and told me he didn’t like them and flew me home. I didn’t understand that. I looked online for a job in porn and met a man who told me to escort and said it was legal. 

When I studied in school we watched a documentary that said it was a legal loophole. He was trafficking women out of Eastern Europe but I didn’t understand that and became my boyfriend. I had never seen that amount of money before. He told me never to do porn and high end clients would treat me better. He was very abusive violent over time. Then I was pimped again. I did a few porn films but had huge fear to be on camera. 

I started working at a brothel for legal money & massaging. After this I wanted to go back to porn because I am very drawn to work with sexuality, sensuality, photoshoots. I became a trophy wife without marriage and it was golden handcuffs with a horrible narcissist who wanted to control me. Then finally I went back to porn . I love frequency of exploration and self love. I am becoming who I always was and healing. The sugar daddy who flew out for sex for 1k slept with me then flew me home. I had a difficult time interpreting a lot due to my low self worth.